Essays

Dressing Up in the Age of Dressing Down

How often do I think "elegant" or "gorgeous" when I am getting ready to go out? These days, anything but denim and leather seems to be deemed uncool. Maybe it’s time we tried a little splendidness.

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The Quest to Divest

Using up, paring down, getting rid of, resisting acquisition: It could be my stage of life or the unhappy economy—either way, I’m hoping to get more out of less. But for a lifelong accumulator, this is not easy.

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Father's Day

Absence is usually what comes to mind when I think of my father. So for once I’m paying homage to his presence—and to Shakespeare’s, whose plays he taught—in my early life.

 
THE TIMING was mystically apt. I saw the write-up for a raffish new production of Shakespeare’s Cymbeline by a group of young players called the Fiasco Theater, and I got a ticket for October 1, the day after what would have been the ninety-ninth birthday of my father, Russell. I wasn’t tearful about it—quite the contrary. For decades I had dealt with his abandonment of our family with a defensive combination of pain, anger, and sardonic humor.  None of these stances acknowledged even a whiff of lingering affection.  Read more...

Fall at the Mall

Disenchanted with fashion hype, yet still lusting after clothes I don't need, I offer not a shopping list but a modest rant.

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Isle of Women

The men of this Breton island spent more time at sea than on land. Women held the fort—and they still do. Maybe that’s why I feel so at home here.

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My Grandfather's Bed

A piece of furniture, shut away in storage for 25 years, is back, and with it the memory of a man whose eccentricity I admired and whose anxieties I inherited.

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Doing It for Love

Just in time for Valentine's Day, an essay in praise of the much-maligned amateur.

 
"CLASS CONFLICT," to me, means that I can't fit in another Learning Experience because I already have one scheduled for that time slot. I am a relentless student: toiling at the ballet barre, pounding through a Bach fugue on the piano, attempting to draw a naked body in an overheated studio. I don't do any of these things like a "real" dancer, musician, or artist. I am a dabbler. A dilettante. A hobbyist. A rank amateur (is there any other kind?). I write professionally, but in other arts I am a permanent beginner. I improve, but I do not master.  Read more...

Venetian Peacock Syndrome

Can a committed fashion neutralist find happiness in living color? My adventures in the red.

 
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Killer Shoes

BLACK SWAN is a melodrama, a mad fantasy…and yet, it is true that ballet is a severe, imperious art, testing the body to its limit. A suffering pointe-shoe novice tells all.

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Next Stop, Berlin

Born in 1945 to a mother who came from a family of European Jews, I have an uneasy relationship—to put it mildly—with Germany. Now I’m going to see for myself.

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